Kenny and I are sitting and at a table in the food court in the mall and I can't believe what I just witnessed. I just watched as my best friend ignored me and ran off with the new kid from school. "I can't believe he ignored me", I whisper to myself. What the hell? I thought we were super best friends!
I put my hands over my face and let out a long groan. I rub my eyes and wait for Kenny to say something, but he doesn't.
"Ugh, I think he's replacing me." Kenny stares at me with one of his eyebrows raised. He chuckles as he takes a sip from his drink.
"What! I'm glad you're finding my misery funny!"
"You are so stupid, Kyle. Seriously." I take my hands away from my face and slam them on the table dramatically. Kenny jumps slightly, looks around at the people staring at us and tells me to calm down.
"What? How am I stupid!"
"Because, you've been hanging out with me for a while now, and while it's been nice, you've been avoiding Stan. You've barely said one word to him for a whole week. Why do you think he's hanging out with someone else?"
why the new kid? He's weird!" I look away and feel my face burning up. Kenny chuckles and rests his hand on his face.
"You're just jealous. Kyle, I know you like him," I gulp loudly and start to sweat, "oh don't look surprised. Christ, you're the one who told me and wanted advice. You have to tell him, you can't keep avoiding him." My face heats up from embarrassment but I know he's right.
" I don't really know what to do or how to tell him. When I saw Stan with the new kid, it made me sad to think of him hating me and wanting a new best friend. I grab onto Kenny's wrist and drag him out of the mall. I'm depressed and furious and I just want to go home now.
"Dude, I'm not done eating!"
After I walk Kenny home, I slowly walk back to my own house. I hang my coat up and grab the portable phone and dial Stan's home number. I don't know if he's home yet, but Kenny told me I should call him. Plus, I want to talk to my best friend, to hear his sexy, husky voice.
"Hello?" I hear a female voice answer.
"Oh, um hi Mrs. Marsh, is Stan there?"
"Actually he's not. Sorry, Kyle." She says in a sweet voice. I sigh and I feel my heart drop. He's probably still with the new kid.
"Okay, thank you." I hang up quickly, probably sounding rude to her. Maybe I should try his cell phone? I wait for a minute for him to answer but it goes right to his voice mail.
Hi Stan. I'm busy this weekend, and you probably found plans for the weekend, too
uh, can we talk on Monday? I really need to talk to you
uh okay, so bye
I hate that I lied to him about hanging out with Kenny this weekend. I really do want to hang out with him, but I don't know what's wrong with me. Sometimes I'm fine around him, and other times I get super nervous. I lay on my bed and just think of what will happen on Monday.
For the rest of the weekend I basically do homework, clean and spend time in my room thinking about Stan. It's now Sunday night and I'm lying on my bed, trying to get comfortable and attempting to fall asleep.
I grab my phone and text Kenny to tell him I'm going to talk to Stan tomorrow and tell him my feelings. I roll onto my side and try to fall asleep once again, and I'm starting to doze off until I feel a light vibrate and I reach over to grab my cell phone beside me. I grin when I see Stan's name pop up and that he responded.
Ok. Meet me my locker before class.
I smile and roll onto my stomach and close my eyes, smiling into my pillow. My stomach feels like it's going to burst open from nerves. I can't believe i'm going to tell my super best friend I have a crush on him, I think to myself before I'm suddenly overcome by sleep.
Morning time came quickly and I basically dashed out of my house and ran to school. I was going to tell Stan today that I like him more than a friend. My nerves are starting to kick in once again and I feel like I have a million butterflies in my stomach.
I run up the stairs to the school and almost walk in until I see Stan and the new kid walk around behind the school. I quietly follow them and peek around the corner to see what they're doing.
My heart shatters into pieces at the sight I'm seeing. The new kid has his hands gripping Stan's shoulders and he's leaning up to press his lips onto Stan's.
I feel my eyes widen and I can feel my mouth drop. Tears start to burn in my eyes, threatening to drop at any second, but I don't let them. Are
they going out?
I love Stan. I can't let him be with anyone else. I blame myself though, Kenny was right. I should have told him sooner, instead of avoiding him. I cover my eyes with my arm to block people from seeing the tears escaping my eyes one after the other. I run to Kenny's locker and sure enough he was there. I race to him and clutch onto his coat and let the tears fall down on my face. He knows right away something is wrong. He wraps his arm around my shoulder and drags me to the nearest bathroom.
What am I going to do now?