All I want is you Ch.10

Kyle and I have been going steady for a good three months now and everything is going so perfect.

It's a Thursday night and I'm sitting on the ground in Kyle's room playing video games, with my back against his bed with him between my legs. He's leaning backwards against me, and I rest my chin on top of his curly, red hair with my arms wrapped around his waist holding the controller in front of him.

I stick out my tongue in concentration, trying not to die in the video game. Kyle is reading some book he picked up today at the mall, and I wonder how he's concentrating on reading when I'm moving around, shouting loudly at the game.

I press down a few more buttons on the controller and scream out loud, rejoicing that I'm one step closer to beating the game.

"HELL YEAH! TAKE THAT YOU SHIT HEAD!" Kyle lets out a slight chuckle as he continues to read.

I tilt my head backwards and close my eyes, thinking about how happy I am with life right now. I love being with Kyle so much, I couldn't be happier.

There is one slight problem, though. We haven't had sex yet. I'm not sure if he wants to yet or not, neither of us has made a move to take it past making out. Okay, this is going to be horribly embarrassing, but I'm going to go for it, I think to myself.

I shift slightly and give him a light kiss on the top of his head. He sets his book down on the ground and lets out a happy sigh, tilting his head up and giving me a light kiss on the chin. He mumbles something that sounds like love you.

"Uhh, Hey….Can I ask you something, Ky?" He moves away and crawls away from me, sitting across from me now.

"Mmm?" He gives me a beautiful smile and stares at me to continue.

"Uhh…okay….umm…have you ever….you know…with anyone?" His cheeks instantly become red and he looks to the side, avoiding my face.

He sits there silently for a few minutes, scratching his head, looking around his room, doing anything but looking at me before he subtly shakes his head.

"Oh, I'm s-sorry, I was just wondering…because I wanted to know if you –" He jumps up and looks at the clock on the wall, his face still beet red.

"Well it's getting late! You should be going! We have school tomorrow…" I stand up to grab my bag, my face feels like it's burning up, I embarrassed myself and I really embarrassed him.

I quickly leave his room and house and start to walk home in the bitter cold weather back to my house.

Shit, shit! I just made a big mistake doing that, I curse to myself. But don't couples have to have this conversation sometime? We've been going out for three months, I thought we would be comfortable talking about anything.

I roughly shove my hands in my pockets and curse at myself for being so stupid for ruining everything.

…

It's been a week since the embarrassing question I asked Kyle and we've barely talked to each other and he hasn't made eye contact with me this whole time.

I arrive at school after getting no sleep to see Kenny with his arm around Kyle's shoulder, and I feel jealousy boiling inside of me.

I may be oblivious to some things, but I have noticed Kyle hanging out with Kenny a lot lately at school. I start to worry that when Kyle and I aren't hanging out, he's with Kenny. And I think back to when I first started to like Kyle, and how he and Kenny were so flirty with each other.

I walk passed him and give him a smile and wave. His face is flushed and he kind of gives me a half smile back before turning his attention back to Kenny.

What the hell? It's not like we had a fight or anything, why is he avoiding me? Maybe he's just still really embarrassed.

"Hi Stan!" A loud, high-pitched voice startles me, and I turn around to see Wendy standing there, wearing a big smile on her face.

"Oh hey Wendy. Where's Bebe?" She pouts and crosses her arms.

"She's sick…well… 'sick', so she says, so she stayed home." I nod slightly and am slightly confused. Girls confuse me.

"How come you're not with Kyle?" I rub at the back of my neck and blush a bit.

"Uhhhh…I'll tell you at lunch, it's kind of embarrassing." She giggles and nods, running off down the hall.

I sigh dramatically and walk to my locker, collecting my books and getting ready for another day at school.

…

At lunch I find Wendy, instantly spotting her because of the bright yellow shirt she's wearing today.

We head to a hallway in the school where there aren't many people around. I don't want anyone to hear what I'm going to tell her. We sit down and she takes out a plastic container with salad in it.

"So what's going on?" She asks curiously while putting dressing on her salad.

"Well…haha…um, I kind of asked him if he's ever…you know, had….sex…" She almost spits out the salad in her mouth before bonking me on the head with her fist.

"Stan! That's super embarrassing to ask someone that. Why did you even ask that? You never asked me that before we had sex."

"I know, but we haven't…done that yet…and I was just wondering if he's…done it before, I wanted to know if he actually wants to have sex or not…it feels like he doesn't want to…" I look down at the ground and frown.

Wendy gently rubs my back for almost the entire time we sit there. She eats the rest of her lunch and I finish up mine as well. We both stand up and she smiles sadly at me.

"I know you're upset, I think you just embarrassed him and he'll get over it soon. Maybe he's just not ready? I don't know, some couples talk about it, but some don't and just go for it. Give him time, he loves you, he won't leave you over something this silly."

A smile forms on my face and I realize that she's absolutely right. He just needs some time to be alone and get over the embarrassment.

"Thanks Wendy." I lean over and wrap my arms around her and she automatically responds by wrapping her arms around me too.

I pull back to see Kyle standing almost at the end of the hallway with his arms crossed. I see him storm away and I give a quick goodbye to Wendy. I hear her shout out a good luck.

I chase after him and realize this seems familiar. I turn the corner to see him in Kenny's arms, gripping at his shirt desperately. I roll my eyes and decide to walk away, leaving him alone.

Maybe he wants to be with Kenny more than me. I don't know how a simple question turned out to be such a dramatic turn out.

…

I sit through the rest of my classes, Kyle and I not paying any attention to each other. I look over at him quickly and our eyes meet for a second before we look away.

The rest of the classes were hell, watching Kyle with Kenny. Finally the bell rings, and it's time to go home. I grab my stuff and go outside, only to see Kyle and Kenny standing there talking.

I walk up to them and glare at Kenny while not looking at Kyle at all. I stand there with my arms crossed, waiting until they notice me there.

"You jerk! You're back with Wendy! I knew you'd go back to her!" Kyle suddenly shouts at me and it kind of startles me.

"Excuse me? You're the cheater! With him!" I point at Kenny and Kyle scoffs at me.

"Okay! We need to talk Stan." Kenny grabs my arm and drags me away from Kyle. I pull my arm away from him angrily.

"What do you want?" I hiss bitterly at him.

"Chill. Kyle told me what you said last week," I blush and look away, "I don't know why he's freaking out so much, it's not a big deal. He's just nervous because he's never been with anyone before, and this is the first time he's had to discuss sex. He loves you, and believe me when I say he wants to have sex."

"Huh? Really?" I feel my face light up and my anger starts to subside. Kenny takes a step towards me and reaches into his pocket, pulling a small bottle of something out and hands it to me.

"A gift from me to you guys. I know you're mad at me because Kyle's been around me quite a bit lately but to be honest he's been asking me for advice and trying to build some confidence to bring the topic of sex up to you. Just go talk to him and get over this little fight, because it's stupid."

I look down at the bottle and read what it is, and realize it's a bottle of lubricant.Oh god, so embarrassing. My face burns up and I quickly shove it into my pocket before anyone sees it.

"T-thanks…but why did you get me this?" He pats me on the shoulder and grins at me.

"Because both of you are idiots and have no idea what you're doing, so I thought I would help out my two good friends." We stand there silently for a few seconds before someone suddenly grabs Kenny's arm.

"Hey Kenny. Stan. Where's the Jew?" I just shrug, not really wanting to tell Cartman the whole story.

"Never mind that, I've got a surprise for you." Kenny grabs his hand and drags him away, but looking over his shoulder as he walks away and gives me a wink.

I head back over to Kyle and grab his hand in mine, he tries to struggle and get out of my grasp but I keep a strong hold on him.

"What the hell Stan! Let go! I'm still mad at you!" He shouts and continues to struggle.

"I'm not cheating on you. I swear I'm not. Like you were with Kenny, I was asking Wendy for advice."

"Huh?" He calms down and finally stops trying to get out of my grip. His hand finally grasps mine back gently.

"Lets talk about it at your house, okay?" I look over at him and he nods his head. He looks so cute with a flushed face.

We walk in the cold to Kyle's house, holding hands, hoping to get this whole thing settled.